I think I'll never get over it

Being away from my 2nd years is something I just have to deal with

finally, something in my life for which there's simply no solution, just live with it.. move on, try as hard as I did before to be happy, and smile at life, smile at a sky when it's raining and giving me disease, and don't try too much to make this an amazing year... just let it flow

i found a song today in my brother's jango which is amazingly good for me right now.

green eyes by coldplay

honey you are a rock
upon which i stan
and i come here to talk
i hope you understand
...

'cause i came here with a load, and it feels so much ligther now i've met you

...

letting go bit by bit

finally being myself,

it feels funny, a bit awkward, but that's how baby calves learn to run and that's how i'll learn to be myself [and happy while at it] in every sense of the word

green eyes

now it's just a matter of accepting work
and accepting having less time
and accepting first years bit by bit
and accepting my second years away
and thinking about this week only, i've done enough thinking about the future

and singing, and crying, and walking under the rain, and talking to people, and holding back when i should, and letting go when i really should

love from the hill

khristian