No Tomorrow, Not Today

Today I talked like there was no tomorrow.

Good Old Friends, who reminded me they're there.

And today I started thinking about careers again. Scared as shit of making the wrong choice. I know I won't regret Graphic Design in college, but what about later? Hmm maybe Pedagogy! I've always said I'll end up as a teacher.

I guess it all comes to the point where (because I'm filling my student recommendation forms) I HAVE to decide. Khristian, so what's it going to be?

I've always looked at people that are so decided on what they want to be, my friend Andrés Olivares for example, he wants to do Math & Physics: "I've always known it". There's also Daniel Jofre (with home I had a weird relationship at school - perhaps rivalry, I don't know) who is studying Architecture, but he decided it long ago as well. Ana Liz Orantes, how to forget her, she's going to be a lovely doctor.

And then after the whole list of people I know that know what to do with their lives: dowwwn the line of people that are applying to college or in college already, there's me.

What is it about me? What do I actually like? Well I like art, maybe it's gone past behind me now that I haven't done any decent art. Oh but there's that rush in the base of my spine that reminds me how I feel after I create something I'm very fond of. Then there's also the fact that I like to help people, I like to start things, I like to lead things, I like to teach things - maybe because all of this makes me feel important. And I like to create things so people can ask "Who did it?".

Yeah, maybe selfish, but hey, that's how I am, not how I chose to be.

Anyway. So that creative, altruistic, leaderish - selfish - me has to find something to do for a living. What in the world would that be?

I've always thought that I could achieve anything I proposed, if I had to work with maths, then I'd push the shit out of me to accomplish it - and boy do I know what pushing myself is.

Hmmm I guess there's something I did realize today, talking to a friend who now is doing Chemical Engineering, one of my previous career options: He said he wondered what would've happened if he had studied medicine.

Damn, and that's true.

There'll always be that wondering. Maybe some Indian or Mayan rite will help me decide. Maybe seeing Nydia in a couple of weeks. Or they might just be of no help in this topic and once again, it all really comes down to my shoulders and the head above them: decide. Soon.

- The change of background is because the other theme wasn't working properly anymore -

On other news, in like May I decided I would start designing the new planner for the school's next academic year. It's a lot of work, but it's nearly done now, my only problem is the freaking cover:

I've done three designs, of which I like the most recent one, but there's something it lacks, any ideas?

The first attempt - May 2010

The second attempt - June 2010

The third attempt - July 2010
(and the one I?m planning to keep

Aaand based on those, there's also three back covers, with the calendars for that :P

What else, oh yeah, I've got 2 weeks left before I leave for India again. What will I do ? Shit, maybe I don't want to leave this soon. Sometimes I do, but not right now, not today.

For now, it's 3 am again, and I need to sleep. Tomorrow it's going to be a long day... (sometimes I think I predispose myself).